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Tue, Jan. 23rd, 2007, 09:34 am
Furry is Life

While watching Furry Night Live at Further Confusion 2007, I suddenly understood why the anti-furry trolls hate us so much. We have something that they can't even comprehend, much less possess: We have each other. Some furries I have spoken to have gone to one con and vowed never to go again, feeling that this rampant exuberance is insulting to the spirituality of their experience of being furry. I felt that spirituality was implicit in everything I saw there, and in the very existence of the con itself. Except for the awakening that Pouch gave me when he brought Ristin into my life, this was the happiest time of my life. Can you imagine my envy of US furries who hop from con to con? :)

I don't want to give a blow by blow description of the con, I'm still trying to internalise the magnitude of the experience myself. It felt like some adult Disneyland where all your dreams come true. But I did want to mention the two most important events of the con.

Quite by chance, I found out that Pouchhopper was at the con. Pouchhopper was the person who made Pouch (I have since found his name was originally Spaceroo). Pouch/Spaceroo is a big plush kangaroo fursuit that reawakened my awareness of myself as a beautiful person deserving of love, and gave me the confidence to reach out when love was offered to me. Most importantly, Pouch brought Ristin into my life. I humbly begged for audience with Pouchhopper so I could thank him in person and I was granted permission. I waited for the appointed time with growing excitement and apprehension. I found that Pouchhopper and his partner Rainhopper are two of the warmest, kindest people you could hope to meet. They welcomed with open arms, and far more kindness than I would have any business to expect. I am still warmed by their heartfelt acceptance of me and my story. He told me that he puts part of his spirit into every suit he makes, and there's no doubt that it was that spirit that shone through in Pouch/Spaceroo and that healed me spiritually when I most needed it.

I attended a plush room party and there I was privileged to be reconciled with pepemapache, a very dear friend whom I still love. I won't go into our history together, but I was so grateful to be forgiven by him. I hope that we can remain close.

One of my few regrets was not having the opportunity to take as many photos as I may want to have for remembering the event later, but I always prefer to live life directly rather than vicariously through a lens. Time permitting, I will be uploading photos from the con to Flickr, so do keep any eye on it.

Tue, Jan. 23rd, 2007 06:46 pm (UTC)

It's so nice to see someone who can really recognize their blessings. And that, in itself, is a blessing. You help to restore my faith in this facet of my own personality, and maybe one day I can let myself love those things I feel everyone will bash if I ever let it out into the open. Thank you, Marko!

Tue, Jan. 23rd, 2007 06:50 pm (UTC)

You met Spaceroo!? No fair... *sniffles* ;_;
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Tue, Jan. 23rd, 2007 10:11 pm (UTC)

When you are ready (and not before) you can fell me the story about furrypaw, the bad and now the good. If you want, that is.

Oh, of course! I don't keep anything from you, Ristin. In fact, I think I already told you, but under a different name.

Wed, Jan. 24th, 2007 06:41 am (UTC)

*gives ya a super big hug*

You're all right! It was a privilege to meet you, and of course we can be closer!! You're a loving friend and will always be in my heart. Thank you so much for your words and for attending the party!! Yay! That was my best FC ever!


Wed, Jan. 24th, 2007 05:31 pm (UTC)

It was my best FC ever too! ^_~ And I'm so glad I got to meet you.

Wed, Jan. 24th, 2007 10:53 am (UTC)

awww sounds fun i will have to make plans to go next year you want to go with me marko? as im scared to go alone

Wed, Jan. 24th, 2007 05:42 pm (UTC)

I think there's several people who want to room with me for next year. It's always delicate balancing competing interests. It helps a lot to have an experienced guide the first time. (Of course, I don't know how experienced I am after only one con.) The first few days Twigmouse led me around on a metaphoric leash and I was really grateful to him for that. (Literal leashes are also okay in public, as long as it looks cute rather than as part of a BDSM scene.)

Wed, Jan. 24th, 2007 04:10 pm (UTC)

*snugs* I had lots of fun with you, I look forward to the next time we meet, hopefully on your turf next time ;-)

Thu, Jan. 25th, 2007 02:09 am (UTC)

awww you saying BDSM is bad?

Thu, Jan. 25th, 2007 08:11 pm (UTC)

What? No! Not in the least. It's just that the FC convenors are trying to maintain certain standards of behaviour in public areas, and I completely agree with them on that point. What you do in your own room or at room parties is up to you.

Sun, Jan. 28th, 2007 05:49 am (UTC)

so they discourage going out on collar and leash in public?

Mon, Jan. 29th, 2007 10:56 pm (UTC)

The Code of Conduct policy's official statement:

"While collars and leashes may be worn discreetly, blatant displays of bondage or BDSM in public may result in [security staff] asking you to return your badge."

Thu, Jan. 25th, 2007 05:24 pm (UTC)

I'm glad you had such a good time at FC. I only caught a glimpse of you as Rattus on Friday afternoon, and you went past too quickly for me to flag you down and say hello, and I didn't see you again after that. I will say that Rattus is just as adorable in person as he is in pictures, however.

Next year, I may have a costume, myself, so I'll be easier to spot. But if you happened to notice someone wandering around with a bandanna-wearing plush vulture or hyena, that was me. :>

Thu, Jan. 25th, 2007 08:39 pm (UTC)

Yes, I'm sorry I didn't spend more time in Rattus. I was feeling fluey for the first part of the con (until I met Pouch and Rain) so I didn't feel like going out in him much and the time just goes by so fast!

Mon, Jan. 29th, 2007 04:02 am (UTC)

*hugs* I did get some pictures of the plush party ^^;;; and one movie i'll send to you soon I'm glad you liked it, and it was a pleasure to meet you!

Mon, Jan. 29th, 2007 10:59 pm (UTC)

I'm so glad that you had such a great time at your first furry con!

I agree with you on the furry trolls comment. My take has been that we just have too much fun. Other people sometimes seem unable to stand that fact that a group of people might like to do silly fun things together.