And I'm off. I will fly out tomorrow morning. I am the usual mixture of excitement, anticipation, apprehensiveness and insecurities. The rat is quite a smorgasbord! On top of the usual though, I need to worry about both my and ristin's futures. I hope Ristin will be okay without me there to support him. There's nothing for it though, as I bought my non-refundable tickets the day before he lost his job. We will do what we usually do: muddle through as best we can.